I was reading back through some old stuff today. Reliving memories. Emotions.

Time got away from me. But when I snapped back into the present I realized I had things to do. But at some point after fulfilling obligations, I came to a realization.

I dove headlong into things from the recent past to shield my mind from the present.

I’ve been choosing emotions over reality. Its causing me to lose my sync with current events and the emotional state of those I interact with.

AND THEN IT CLICKED!

I saw the pattern, and immediately lost interest in repeating it.

I’ve been avoiding pain by looking backward.

And before I avoided pain by looking too far forward.

I guess I over compensated when I reversed it!

Trying to find equilibrium.