Most of the time in early Spring I have a basement full of seedlings sprouting for the garden I intend to plant, a notebook full of plans, planting times, and a layout for planting.

That was not the case this year. My heart wasn’t in it this spring, but I still bought plants from greenhouses like it was. I planted all of them! And then lost my will to garden.

It happens every couple of years. The first time was when my dad passed, I didn’t have the will to maintain the garden or even harvest anything.

This year I have had so much going on, with the house, with traveling, helping my sister, etc. The raspberry plants are sick, my cucumbers are neglected and the fruits are misshapen and overgrown, the tomatoes are heavy with ripe fruit that needs to be harvested, the only thing that is doing really good is the corn.

I need to listen to myself a little better on this next year. Maybe I’ll just sew wildflower seeds next year and buy tomatoes from a local farmer to make salsa instead of trying to grow them myself.